Fat Tuesday is here! And I am feeling it. This time last year I was nearly 15 pounds lighter. If only I was one of those people who stopped eating when depressed! But, in typical Jumbled form, I just stuff my face like mad. As this day of revelry comes to an end, so must my sad feeding frenzy.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this lovely Blisschick post. She suggests planting positive seeds this Lenten season.
I was not raised Catholic, so I don’t necessarily have any negative associations with it. To the contrary, I rather like the idea of giving up something for 40 days each year. The first time I tried it, I celebrated Carne vale style (from the Latin meaning “farewell meat”) by going vegetarian. That has been one of the most happy abstinence experiences of my life.
This year, I feel a strong need to move beyond letting go, and look towards holding on to and reclaiming pieces of myself so that I can move on to the real work at hand – reinventing myself.
Most of the “old me” was shattered with JumbleSon’s birth. But there are parts that I should not try to live without:
- daily running meditations
- eating healthy foods in moderation
- limiting chocolate consumption
- foregoing comparisons
Especially during difficult times, I must have these things. While I have ideas about how I might bring these things back in to my life, I can not see how they will actually manifest into reality. So, I must go to work.
Starting this new moon I will lay the groundwork over the next 40 days for reclaiming the healthy pieces of myself. And perhaps the woman behind the mask will one day reveal her true Self once more.
How about you? Do you use the Lenten Season (or any other time of the year) to reflect on, and/or recreate yourself? If so, what are you working on this year? What can’t you live without?